deep inside lies a defeated mindset, filled with anxiety
everytime he think's he's fine, it continues to evolve. daily
pressure and pain to be/do/act like something he is not from those who love and care about him
relying on the physical and forgetting the mental damage. It got so bad he
even let go of the life he used to lead. his happiness is gone.
sooo many times telling himself he can change this by himself, he'd fail and try again, strong- willed and stubborn; refusing to be vulnerable.
sooo many times manuevering like a robot without emotions
"i don't need help, I got this", all while masking this internal pain. but the
only thing was, he did need help and received it in those spaces he feared going into.
no longer facing these battles from years ago
